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Journal Entry: Tue May 21, 2013, 4:15 AM


So ... yeah ... Finally ... Im here writting this <3

First of all, I will explain a little all this .. whole process and how many times had thought of doing this ...

Before I birth, my father always wanted a boy in the family .. (at the end we were 3 girls) I been the first to born, so...my father had insisted on treating me like a boy, football ... cars ... I think the only Barbies I had were for my grandmother, even that I never got to play with them a while. Finally I grew up with these hobbies, especially football, and my behavior wasn't very feminine, in fact, I always was called "tomboy" and I ignored them...yes, I was in my "yupi" world you know x'D... and later it wasn't only football.. basketball too. I wasn't very good at school x'D

The fact is that at age 14, I lost my "father". Since I was little I was always very close to my grandparents and i live in his house since then, my parents and I have never been so close, my grandparents are my "parents" .. and .. when I lost my grandfather, It really hurted to me ... like losing a parent .. I left everything, studies for a while and permanently sports .. especially basketball, which he liked very much .. I never touched a  ball since.

The years passed, and I grew up, overcoming all this .. and, I realized that I dwelt in a body that didn't want, with which I am uncomfortable ...

So...Finally I decided to do it, and no, it isn't a joke. I've talked to a lot of people of this issue .. and most of them support me .. but mostly i count with the support of  my girlfriend :iconmel-arcobaleno: whom I love more and more <3 I really thank you ... is a great support to me (LLL) I really love you my princess <3

I'm not afraid, nothing that happens now, the changes .. the operation, I am determined to do it and nothing is gonna cast me back ... I hope you can understand this, I would also want to receive your support ...  Its mean a lot to me.. guys <3

So... you can call me know.. Nick or in Spanish, Nico <3

I will make videos on Youtube to help people like me...and, to show you my changes with this.. the hormones, changes of the body... the steps...all <3

Now.. I'm really happy guys.. seriously >-< i'm gonna cry... ;//;

That's it, if you are going to ask me something .. i'll answer it <3

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:iconadderconda:
adderconda Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I really envy you

Ive been getting really depressed lately because I know Im a trans but I cant come out to my family. How did you do it for your family and what are some tips?
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Hmm... I see...
Well... in my case.. I sat down to talk to them calmly when I went home. I told them "I feel trapped in a body that isn't mine, that for many years I was considering taking this step and I wish that they will support me" ... I said to them how i feel ... but, my father not took it well ... and hopefully in time, He can accept me .. as his son.
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adderconda Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It seems like moms have more unconditional love
im pretty hesitant to tell my father and especially my step mom and brother but I will have to tell them eventually..
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m-chans Featured By Owner May 24, 2013
You have my support (:
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Si? Gracias *^* <3
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theExpressor Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student Digital Artist
u hav my Support!!!
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:iconrikukhx:
RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much >w<
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Renz-chan Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Operation? You are very brave, in my opinion. So I wish you good luck. =)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much Renz-chan ! >w<
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:iconkakashigirl13:
Kakashigirl13 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
YOU MOST DEFINATELY HAVE MY TREMOENDOUS SUPPORT!!! WOOOH!!!
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Seriously?! Thankss so muchhhhh <33333
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Kakashigirl13 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013
hahahaha s'okay :iconbrohugplz:
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:iconthecaringstallion:
TheCaringStallion Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
You have my support ;)
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:iconrikukhx:
RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks u//u
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TheCaringStallion Featured By Owner May 22, 2013
You're welcome.
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leanape09 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Writer
Oh, good for you! :D Thats great, actually. Good job for doing what you want. Have my yes, kind soul. :iconthumbsupplz:
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks ! it means alot to me to count with you too >w<
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leanape09 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student Writer
Oh your welcome! :iconblushplz: I support basically whatever someone wants to do, as long as they think it through :iconhuggleplz:
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Awwww <333 thank u so much leanape <3
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leanape09 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student Writer
Oh, Your welcome :heart: And Im gonna start calling you Riku, now, cause you call me Leanape ;) XD
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
hahaha x'D well i can call u for your real name if u prefer x'D
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leanape09 Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student Writer
Oh I don't care :3 You want me to call you your real name?
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
No if you prefer Riku x'D Its okay ^^
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sakurayamanashi Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
This is totally cool. People shouldn't bug you about it. If they do, just know that they're morons. ^_^
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I know, and I think I'm ready to face that kind of people ^ ^ Thank you <3
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Minnie1995 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Writer
I Support you completely :hug: :)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank u so much !
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Minnie1995 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Writer
You're welcome :hug:
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tsuki-ya Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
First of all, epic journal theme. (I'm a DMC fan, and a big one at that)

Now for the main topic: It's amazing that you've found who you want to be. It's like you've found reason for your existence, and if you've found that there's nothing to fear. I've never dwelt on this topic much, to be honest, but reading your journal made me want to support you. I cannot begin to imagine what you have been through in the past, but I can say this that the future still holds infinite possibilities. So go for it, Nico. Go for it, and become a new person. :)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much <3 (yeah, me too.)

Yeah, finally i found it. Yeah, exact ! i'm not scared about this ^^
Dawwww... thanks so much for supporting me ! i really thank you for this, it means a lot to me that you guys, gonna be with me supporting me. This words encourage me a lot ! , I'll be what I wanted to be all this time... <3 :)
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tsuki-ya Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah. ^_^

And be sure to drop us some pics of your new handsome self, got it? :)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Sure ! <3
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XxBeyond Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Relamente increible!! Se merece mucho más que un aplauso :3
Yo también escribí algo parecido y después de enseñarlo a mis amigos ahora me tratan diferente y es un lujo, la verdad.
Aunque mi madre piensa que "falló" en mi educación y me odia en cierto modo por pensar si quiera en una operación =7
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
adsadsad No merece tanto >.<
¿Si? , bueno, eso está bien, el apoyo de los amigos siempre es fuerte nwn y que te traten de esa manera no se.. a mi me hace bastante feliz.., si, lo es.
Bueno.. mi padre piensa igual que es "antinatural" pero mi madre es algo más comprensiva, y , mi padre quiera o no, deberá aceptarlo, y me gustaría que fuera cuanto antes por que el apoyo de los padres en decisiones como esta es muy importante.
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XxBeyond Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Mi madre se supone que aun de lo está pensando, aunque he de aclarar que yo no quiero exactamente una operación de sexo, sino solo una mastectomía, aunque no se digna a hablar de ello conmigo.
Me alegra que tu madre de apoye! Eso es genial :3
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Ah... ya veo, bueno, yo también voy por el camino de la masectomía en un principio, puesto que es la única operación que puede llegar a entrar en la seguridad social.. y, comprendo el problema de tu madre, pero, por lo menos lo piensa no? >w< Bueno, es un tema que es cierto que hay que comentarlo...y si va a hacer oídos sordos..pues habrá que esperar, o decirle que te escuche.

adasd si ! lo es >-<
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XxBeyond Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Eso es cierto, pero a mi me interesa solo eso, nada de hormonas ni etc's(?)
Así que si relamente solo la mastectomia puede entrar por la Seguridad Social sería una gran punto a favor.
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Ya... pero, sin las hormonas no te entra en la seguridad social.. ese es el problema Dx
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XxBeyond Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
claro, eso es lo que quería mirar, aunque tal vez exista algun modo, porque de todas formas antes tienes que pasar por el psicolo, creo..
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Si... psicologo te lo ponen quieras o no... a menos que te pagues la operación y... PUFFF...
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deviantartsbiglover Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
Thankfully we live in a modern enough world where choices like these can be made. If this is truly what you want, then go for it. :)
And good luck :)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much ! I'm glad that you think like that and.. yes, thankfully we live in a modern enough world .
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Kaguyaaa Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student General Artist
Do whatever you want.
We won't stop you. :)
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
<3
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OzzyOzadie Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Filmographer
I support you! At one point I wanted to be a girl, but abandomned it out of fear of family rejection
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks friend, it means a lot to me ... <3 And... there's always time to make a decision, the opinion of the family is very important, i know, but one must be who really wants to be!

Thanks again ...for the support <3
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OzzyOzadie Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Filmographer
You're welcome :3 Also It'd be nice to have updates after the 'transformation' or what it's called :3
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RikuKHx Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Sure, i'll make videos on youtube and i'll post journals of how it feels...x'3
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OzzyOzadie Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Filmographer
I can't wait to hear it :3 Can I have a link to your YouTube so I can subscribe now? :D
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